When I tell myself that I need to write in my Journal more often or blog more often, I retort back to myself "oh yeah, you have too much to write. When will you ever have the time to finish it all?"
I am a "finisher", it's one of my favorite personality traits. But (yes, I am beginning a sentence with 'but') since I never like to start something that I can't finish, I often don't start. Now I am turning over a new leaf and starting something that I will intentionally leave incomplete.
This is a direct contrast to how my Mother was. She would start lots of things, too many things, and she would never get around to completing all of the projects that she started. they just piled up in her living room and the three bedrooms that she used to save the remains of unfinished projects. It was nerve-racking. I would need to leave her house before I developed a nervous tick from all of my unexpressed frustration. Now that she's gone, I look back with regret. Partly because of how I cursed the mess that she left for us, and partly because I let her packratitis (that is a word) drive a wedge between us. She was a great lady, giving to a fault. I really miss her fun, spontaneous approach to life. I owe it to her to write more about her. Nevertheless, it is difficult to write something that it so personal for all the world to see it in my blog. Then again, no one ever reads my blog, so it might as well be kept in a diary in my sock drawer. Blogs are slightly more fun though, and my kids won't color all over this either. So, in honor of my dear old mum, I'm going to make a list of blog entries that may never see the light of day. Here goes:
1. Camping and nearly drowning with Richard.
2. Shadow, my cat.
3. How I met Debera, my Wife.
4. Elizabeth and the clown parade that never happened.
5. Breakfast in India.
6. "You drink COLD milk without SUGAR? That's GROSS!"
7. The bat trick (another story about Richard).
8. The death of my Mother (this one will be hard to write).
9. How I know for sure that there is a God (no fooling).
10. You are Hindu already!
11. What is so great about the Grateful Dead?
12. The time I tried to be like Gandhi.
13. Why Halloween is my favorite Holiday.
and many more. Hey, I didn't even finish the list!
